Getting my act together
I managed to stay in pretty good shape after my wedding early this year. I maintained my weight and ate healthy foods and exercised regularly.
But ever since I decided to go to law school, my physical condition has deteriorated. I have gained some pounds, a small number but a big impact on my short body; I have lapsed into eating awful, fattening foods; and I have almost completely stopped going to the gym. For a few weeks before the LSAT, I got my act together and at least worked out. But I didn't change my eating habits, and I didn't lose any weight.
I've looked at myself and realized it's time, once again, for drastic measures. It's time, in other words, to get organized.
A few years ago, I discovered that the quickest way for me to pay attention to my physical wellbeing was to hyperfocus on it. It's the only way I can monitor myself. I have to keep a food diary and count calories, I have to keep an exercise log, and I have to do it every day. In that vein, I bought a piece of shareware for my Palm Pilot that does all of it for me. (It was cheap.)
The software is called Cheater and it makes me feel like a completely anal retentive, obsessive-compulsive, food-focused freak while using it. But it's a good thing. It gives positive feedback! It gives negative feedback! It's exportable! (I do not export anything from it, because that would be more anal retentive and obsessive compulsive than even I am comfortable with.)
Every time I look at my body and see that I've gained some weight or gotten flabby, I go back to Cheater. I suppose being so conscious of what I put in my mouth is mildly unheathly—and food issues are not unknown in my family, mostly on the too-much-food side of things. But more unhealthy would be remaining in denial. So I am back on the calorie-counting wagon.
This may make me grouchy in the coming weeks. But I can't be any grouchier than I already am over my expanding ass and belly. I just wish I'd done this a month ago. Now I have to be anal retentive and obsessive-compulsive during Thanksgiving. Pooh.
But ever since I decided to go to law school, my physical condition has deteriorated. I have gained some pounds, a small number but a big impact on my short body; I have lapsed into eating awful, fattening foods; and I have almost completely stopped going to the gym. For a few weeks before the LSAT, I got my act together and at least worked out. But I didn't change my eating habits, and I didn't lose any weight.
I've looked at myself and realized it's time, once again, for drastic measures. It's time, in other words, to get organized.
A few years ago, I discovered that the quickest way for me to pay attention to my physical wellbeing was to hyperfocus on it. It's the only way I can monitor myself. I have to keep a food diary and count calories, I have to keep an exercise log, and I have to do it every day. In that vein, I bought a piece of shareware for my Palm Pilot that does all of it for me. (It was cheap.)
The software is called Cheater and it makes me feel like a completely anal retentive, obsessive-compulsive, food-focused freak while using it. But it's a good thing. It gives positive feedback! It gives negative feedback! It's exportable! (I do not export anything from it, because that would be more anal retentive and obsessive compulsive than even I am comfortable with.)
Every time I look at my body and see that I've gained some weight or gotten flabby, I go back to Cheater. I suppose being so conscious of what I put in my mouth is mildly unheathly—and food issues are not unknown in my family, mostly on the too-much-food side of things. But more unhealthy would be remaining in denial. So I am back on the calorie-counting wagon.
This may make me grouchy in the coming weeks. But I can't be any grouchier than I already am over my expanding ass and belly. I just wish I'd done this a month ago. Now I have to be anal retentive and obsessive-compulsive during Thanksgiving. Pooh.
posted by divine angst at 2:56:00 PM
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